Thursday, February 02, 2006

 

In the dark

we must see with the eyes of a cat.

ive been afraid of myself for too long. haven't we all. i mean its all a matter of balance, right? what goes in, what comes out, the pressing disastrous reality of the world around you measured against the emphemeral meaninglessness of it all? but the basic idea is power, isnt it? and the desire for power is something i never really understood until last summer. power to be. and its a hard thing to conjure up. empowerment is probably the most overused concept since equality. but real empowerment comes from inside, which is of course to say, it comes from outside. something like f. said 'encounter the other inside of the self.' something like that but better. the source, the fountainhead, godhead, the irreducible dot. something like that. the thing inside you that isnt you, that tells you who you are, or could be, if you encountered it properly, on your own terms. because you cant be until your being is displaced by something else, once you realize your self is just a moment, a moment that is being fed by something greater, something that can be chanelled into that moment, expanding it beyond all limitations by exploding it from within. and there are all sorts of tricks for doing that. ive found a few. just need to keep practicing them. so yeah. plug in and shine out, before the bulb bursts. because the bastards have us up against the wall.

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